Soal Hati

I got a mixed feeling today. Don't know how to react. Suddenly my doubt was answered. The best part that answer coming from berbatu2 jauhnya. And it was from my best friend. Tak sangka he suddenly come with the answer which I am not asking for and that will be my secret that I kept to myself only.Pelik kan macamana dia tau.BTW, Thanks buddy.

At least now it can stop me from keeps guessing those uncertainty which I am not really sure tentang kebenarannya.
Although I got the answer but still don't know to react? But I know I should do something to correct this rather than avoiding it. I want to make thing as usual. My mistake cause I stop everything, I've let the words left unsaid. Things happen so fast and I am not really ready for that although I realize about this earlier.And that sudden change really scared me.I am sorry if I screw it up.

But I really don't know to face the CONFESSION.

AJL 23 - Lagu Untukmu by MUH

I has been few years I am not following or watching AJL by TV3. Bukan apa standard of performance by Malaysian artist before this jauh tertinggal if to compare with international or even Indonesian pun.(maybe bias sbb myself peminat indonesian music since Dewa lagi).Ingat dulu2 bila ade AJL jer sumer org stay depan tv and tomorrow morning muncul la juri2 yang tak berapa diiktiraf dok comment pasal sapa patut menang and sapa tak patut.But after few years, AJL become less popular and only few people watching because it was damn bored.

But last night tergerak hati nak tengok and guess what..for the first time I feel that it was the best AJL ever. Sampai tak berganjak dari tv. Nak g kencing pun tunggu break dulu.LOL

What impress me is the performance, entertaining and very theatricals. Of course the best is the winner, MUH - Lagu Untukmu. Suka sgt make up clown tu.(I actually obsess dengan Joker from Dark Knight tu :p).Facial expression from the clown make up tu maybe added extra feel to that song. Menjadi sgt2 and it was a perfect 10 performance. The singer hit very high pitch which definitely the song that I cannot sing at mana2 karaoke. But I love this song so much. Kudos to all indie band for the fresh music that you guys bring in.Selain MUH ader lagi indie band mcm Bunkface and Hujan yang mula diterima oleh Malaysian music industry.

Actually it was not only MUH yang perform bagus. Both Faizal Tahir performance pun bagus sangat2. Although I am not a fan of Faizal and his song, because for me he is so poyo, but i cannot deny it was an intelligent performance and whoever the chareographer is, I have to give credit to them.

Selain MUH and Faizal, my other fav will be Stacy, Estranged and Elyana. Walaupun lagu Stacy tu aku tak pernah paham pasal aper, but the performance esp the dance part superb. Mcmana la dia leh nyanyi sambil dance mcm tu. Estranged pun not bad and aku pun suka lagu Yang Pernah tu. Elyana, it was a cute one walaupun she just duduk jer atas tangga tu. Overall semua bagus except Ziana Zain and Farawahida yang aku tak berapa gemar. Tak paham pulak knp Farawahida bleh dapat award gak. Hehe.ader jugak comment.

BTW..I am currently listening to Afgan-Confession No 1 CD. Also from Indonesia.

Check out clip from YouTube for Lagu Untukmu - MUH

Are We Not Human?

Reading an article titled Gaza diary: Are we not human? at Al-Jazeera.net really really touch my heart.

http://english.aljazeera.net/focus/war_on_gaza/2009/01/200917111341829322.html

It broke my heart when Mohammed wrote;

"I am not afraid of dying - I know that one day we all must die. But not like this, not sitting idly in my home with my children in my arms waiting for our lives to be taken away. I am disgusted by this injustice."

Of course you are human Mohammed..those Israel is an animals. The war is so cruel.

I wish I could do more besides praying for you and all Palestinian people. God will always be with you Mohammed.

I don't know what are the world leaders is waiting for. Until today Palestinian death toll in the has risen to 821 people and more than 3,300 injured and most of them are WOMAN and CHILDREN-those innocent heart. Mungkin ada benarnya apa yang Mohammed wrote, to see Palestinian people and families erased before they act. How sad.

Look what is Israel has done. Could we stand to see more of this?

Look into those eyes..those tiny little heart.Do they deserve this? Ini bumi mereka..let's give them some hope.

Besides DOA this is what I will at least do to support humanitarian aid.So do you.

Before it's too late..

Shadows fill an empty heart

As love is fading,

From all the things that we are

But are not saying.

Can we see beyond the scars

And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.

And open up to

The ways you made me feel alive,

The ways I loved you.

For all the things that never died,

To make it through the night,

Love will find you.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby,before it's too late,

What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes

To start a new day.

This broken heart can still survive

With a touch of your grace.

Shadows fade into the light.

I am by your side,

Where love will find you.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love, it never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

Now that we're here,

Now that we've come this far,

Just hold on.

There is nothing to fear,

For I am right beside you.

For all my life,

I am yours.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

Baby, before it's too late,

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

What About Now by Daughtry

A Day at Service Centre

Today I sent my Ms.116 to service centre at Kuantan for 2nd service. My first service I had it in Seri Kembangan. One thing that amaze me is layanan at this Service Centre (maybe I feel differently because my first service didn't turn out good as I have to wait long before I was entertain.

I arrived there with a warm welcome by the manager(I guess.)..greet me and showing me to service reception. I was then entertain by a lady and she do usual process before Ms.116 will be handed over to mechanic for maintenance. Less than 5 min she did that and she told me Ms.116 will be completed within 1 hr plus. Then, I told her that I just wait there since I have no plan to go anywhere. She show where's the customer lounge and inform me that if I want to have a look a new City at the showroom. (maybe jugak sbb x ramai org dia sempat layan aku mcm ni).

Then I first enter the customer lounge, ada sofa, few bar stool, a lcd tv and a coffee maker. Then I feel bored, I heading to the showroom to see the younger brother to Ms.116.
I was then greet again by that manager and this time he express myself by the plate no...DBJ116..asking me datang service kali ke berapa?..I was like..wow he remember my plate and realize me since I entering the premises.
Sempat chit-chat with him kejap and then he ask me to wait and he came back with a mineral bottle. Very nice of him..(you know what, I didn't receive the same treatment when I came to see the new launch car before..bukan kat sini la..maybe because at that time I drove Ms.Red..2nd class isn't it?

I then proceed to the new City. My comment..not so impressive...I like the body but too much detail at the front make it look weird..the head lamp is nice..kalau letak lampu tu kat Ms.116 cantek gak. Interior wise..takde perubahan sgt. Cara I tgk kereta lain sikit, I tend to see interior dulu. Kalau x impress me, then that's it la.Hehe.Of course la because I keep comparing with Ms.116. The verdict: I didn't like it but I would recommend it to my brother instead.

I saw an advertisement there saying that Honda shrinking the interest rate for City, Accord and Jazz for a very minimum rate. For a city it goes to 2.40% which is very low compared to mine two month ago 3.70%.Even the have the option the have cash rebate up to RM3500 too. Mine only RM500. My god I was on my losing side..Then I asked the sales man what is the interest rate for Ms.116 model now. It was 2.85-2.90%. I've calculated I lost about RM7200 in total if compared to current interest rate. Boleh aku buat beli DSLR with wide lens dengan duit tuh. Monthly installment beza dalam RM66. Hmm nak buat macamana. Then I decided not to think about it sebab nak sedapkan hati.

Then I return to the lounge. Had a cup of latte and try to activate wifi thru my-iphone. Wifi ader tapi kena masuk password. Minus point to this. Kejap jer lepas tu the lady call me and Ms.116 completed for only one hour. Another plus point. Then, I left the centre and heading to nowhere.

Since it was still early, I decided to drop by at Padini Concept Store because they have members sale today. Sempat capai few shirt and t-shirt because it were so cheap. Around RM20 per pc for a PDI and SEED. Despite my brother complaining about I have so much clothes sampai wardrobe nak runtuh, I'll still do. Sorry ek.. because only once you kemas my room that is why you complaining kan. Balik rumah, it turns out that 2 of the shirt is exactly the same with my brother. Betul2 I x perasan dia penah ader baju tu. Anyway that shows we have same fashion taste and only fashion..others definitely berbeza.

Penat sungguh the whole day arini but I've done so many thing in one day termasuk bangun pagi beli breakfast for 25 pax to have birthday surprise party for our collegue MC.Nor. June made cute cuppies for that. She posted in her blog. Sedap and cute. Definitely I want to order nanti although June tak bukak kedai pun lagi :p.

Peace.

Happy New Year 2008/1430.

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and days of auld lang syne?

For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll take a cup o' kindness yet
For auld lang syne

We twa hae run aboot the braes
And pou'd the gowans fine;
we've wander'd mony a weary foot

Sin' auld lang syne

We two hae paidled i' the burn,

Frae mornin' sun till dine;
But seas between us braid hae roar'd

Sin' auld lang syne

And here's a hand, my trusty friend,
And gie's a hand o' thine;

We'll take a cup o' kindness yet

For auld lang syne

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,

and never brought to mind?

Should auld acquaintance be forgot

and days of auld lang syne?

For auld lang syne, my dear,

For auld lang syne,

We'll take a cup o' kindness yet

For auld lang syne

It's already 2.14 past midnight I suddenly heard people sang this song on tv. It reminds me when the times I celebrate new year for the past few years. Itu cerita dulu2 when I was in KL and BTU, now I'm too old for that i guess..yer ker? But then, those good old days is very fun and happening kan.

Since I was transfered here, there's no celebration anymore. Bagus la tu..mat dean is asking in his FB why people is so eager celebrating new year but maal hijrah lepas 2-3 hari sudah tak ada orang kisah.Hmm..betul gak tu. Something to be thinking of and corrected.

I promised in my previous post to write my new year resolution. Since this morning I keep thing of my new resolution. What would it be? Some will be brought over from last year resolution yang tak tertunai lagi tapi apa pulak yang new?

Haha..apart from stay sexy as mentioned above here's my 2009 resolution.

1. Writing up a blog - which I already started earlier. Thanks god at least my first resolution dah tertunai on the very first January 2009 lagi. Actually this is my last year resolution, so I have to make sure this year to happen jugak.

2.Buying a house for investment - ni pun kira dah terlambat jugak. I'm supposed to buy a condo last year lagi kat KL. But it contradict with my father opinion, he prefer me to buy a landed house instead of condo(lagi2 kalau kawasan bukit). Well, based on current incident like kat Bukit Antarabangsa hari tu, i somewhat agree with him on why he dun want me to own a condo. But then, susah nak cari landed house dekat2 golden triangle tu. Kalau ade mesti dah outskirt KL which the rental will be very low and risk of left without tenant. Anyway, slowly i need to start survey and my father also asked one of my relative kat KL tolong2 carikan jugak. He's the developer so harap2 I get get a nice house soon.

3.Learn photography and own a DSLR - nak belajar photography mesti nak kena ada DSLR. Before this I already started learning taking photo but only with camera pinjam. Slow sikit macam tu. I'm suppose to buy that camera already, but somehow jadi undecided which model to choose because few of my friend keep suggesting buying the different model which is more expensive+more features.But I start to think, how much budget did I have? No so much..then ukur baju di badan sendiri la. This time I won't to listen to anybody, after all it is mine kan. So my wish is to get NIKON D90 soon.

4.Get my promotion - dun want to explain too much but by hook or by crook I have to make sure I pass the assessment by this year. Please pray for me.

5. Stay fit, do exercise and follow my Herbalife routine - which i keep cheating this for quite sometimes. Thats explain why I put it on weight again lately.Need to start all over again my HL routine and try to jog in morning before work. Can or not?

6.Travelling - this is my passion. Need to pin few more countries on my world map. Maybe this year I won't go far. Thinking of Vietnam, Bangkok and may be make a come back to Bandung. Bandung should be my annual visit but 2008 is not happening because of my tight schedule. And i almost forgot, I promised to bring my mum to langkawi for shopping, that will be this year also since I miss 2008. Kalau ada rezeki lebih Ma, kita pegi Bandung lagi best. Out bound trip will be save for another year, need to kumpul money lebih sikit. maybe utk honeymoon skali. haha you're wish..anyway for that i definitely will return to Paris -my favourite.

7. Last but not least yet berry2 important which I won't explain in detail - Get Married.

Se7en resolution that I need to achieve by this year. A New Year's resolution is something that goes in one year and out the other. Let's pray for it. Insyaallah.

Wishing everbody Selamat Tahun Baru 2008/1430!

"Every man should be born again on the first day of January. Start with a fresh page. Take up one hole more in the buckle if necessary, or let down one, according to circumstances; but on the first of January let every man gird himself once more, with his face to the front, and take no interest in the things that were and are past." ~Henry Ward Beecher